I have always considered myself an active person....don't get that confused with someone who plays sports...it's a simple mistake, really. I like to push myself daily to move more. My attempt is to be up before my kiddos and exercise before there are in hot demand for their momma! Lately, I'd have to stress attempt, sadly! I like to keep busy, having my hands and mind at work.
For these past few weeks, I have had the opportunity to be busy...but still. My youngest child has been sick this month with high fevers that come and go...seeming though more coming than going! With her being sick, she has been wanting me to hold her. I want to hold her. I want to help her...but in doing so, my life feels like it has changed. My house is getting messy, my laundry is growing and the dishes are piling on the counter. My sleep has changed too, as she is really uncomfortable and in pain especially at night, I have been rocking her to sleep most nights...kind of reminding me of the newborn stage. As soon as she falls asleep, tip-toeing into her room, placing her in her crib and quietly leaving the room,praying that she will remain that way til morning or at least until her next bout of meds.
But I am learning that no matter where I am when she is in my arms, I am still. I am learning to take this time to pray and focus on God's will for my life whether I am in my recliner at 4am or waiting for hours at the doctor's awaiting her tests.
God asks us to be still...it doesn't come naturally to me, but it is His way. Not only has this time been exhausting, it's been a character building experience, learning to balance my responsibilities and deciding what things I can let go. Thankfully, I can do all things through Him who gives my strength!
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Being still is hard for me too. I always feel the need to be doing something. This week, waiting to hear when our court date is scheduled has been so hard AND there was not one thing scheduled for me on the calendar. I think God is trying to teach me a lesson or two on waiting and trusting on Him even more.
...I wish I would just learn my lessons already!!;-)
I hope your little sweetie gets better soon! That is so rough... and a long time to be dealing with it!
Good for you to forget about the non-important stuff and focus on what is.
Awesome post!
Such a great reminder to take those times to be still and listen and pray!
Hope your girlie gets better!
HUGS
Andrea,
Your post has reminded me again of the needlepoint :-) picture my mother had in my and my brothers' room while we were growing up. I read it so many times in my childhood that it has stayed with me and i find it helpful now that i am a mom myself:
"Cleaning and scrubbing can wait 'till tomorrow,
'Cause babies grow up, we've learned to our sorrow.
So quiet down cobwebs, dust go to sleep, i'm rocking my baby and babies dont keep."
Enjoy the time rocking your baby and the lovely lessons you're learning from the Almighty about peace and patience and letting go of things around you that dont really matter.
And may God heal your daughter's body soon!
jocelyn
It's true that it is so hard to be still. There is so much that needs to be done. After all is said and done, the othe stuff is not so important. Praying you get your answers soon and can move on to helping Jessica get better.
Despite being in a situation that all of us moms would just get weary of, you can take it and see the positive in it. Sometimes it's good for us to sit and be with God...although I will pray that it won't be holding a sick child. A healthy child, now that would be just fine!
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