One of my favorite things...

I love writing in my prayer journal. It has been a quite a learning process finding a way for me to communicate my feelings, joys and fears to my Heavenly Father. He has been extremely gracious...accepting me especially when I felt like a failure to those around me. I feel so undeserving. I have experienced His love, guidance and answers to so many of my prayers...some audibly, some very subtly. I struggle with negative self-talk, replaying my mistakes and wishing to have 'do-overs' often thus needing to talk to God often. I also have the ability to drop everything at His feet and share my heart with words. I have a place to express the beauty of this world, thankfulness for His love pouring on me, our vision for helping others and to share my heart's songs in a way I know how.
I struggle praying silently as I get distracted and praying out loud isn't always possible. I do want my heart to be a constant prayer.
That is my prayer.
So I journal my prayers. I crave it. I re-read them and see how he has help me and others I know or love through difficult times. I have been able to date my prayers answered and places where I have felt God changed me, my heart or the situation that was brought to the Throne Of Grace. This week was no exception.
I love this quiet time between God and I. Some days I have only had the strength to date it and see my tears stain the page. God was there. The days I have made a fool of myself and apologized for my mistakes, He forgave me. When the pain was too great, He held me close and I felt His presence. As my heart danced with joy, I knew that He knew my heart.
Talking with my best friend and my Creator has been such an amazing and healing experience, there are days I feel I cannot contain His LOVE.
I cannot fathom walking throughout my life without Him.
Yes, this is one of my favorite things!