This past season of life has been super tough. I cannot even try to articulate my feelings into words.
I have discovered though that I cannot handle stress well.
Stress and me....not friends.
Looking back in my life, I have noticed a change in how I react to problems I am faced with.
My therapy.
My coping.
I used to eat and eat and EAT!
Then I began to bake and bake and BAKE.
Then came journal writing...which I do almost daily still.
But with so much on my mind and heart, extra energy brings me to my lil gym downstairs. I realized last night that I burnt 7,000 calories on my elliptical since Monday. Healthy? Probably not. Necessary? Probably.
I have yelled, screamed, cried, sweated and talked myself into realistic thinking and of course, prayed...A. LOT!!!! I have discovered that though I have unknowns clogging up my mind, and at times makes me feel out of control, confused, lost and uncertain which direction I'm facing or heading, I have been filled with hope.
HOPE!
I know that God is in control...that makes me feel safe and know that I'm in His hands.
And today, I smiled. I am cetain joy will come...
2 comments:
Sending much love and YES! joy will come....be surrounded in his love and that joy will come.
I'm sorry for the struggles your facing Andrea. I know that we don't know each other super well, but I do know your amazing smile and super positive nature. I'll add you to my prayer list girlie... I am proud of you for taking it out on your elliptical and not on food!!
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