I am not perfect. I have many sins that I struggle with...but I am honest. I refuse to sit and watch relationships decay in front of me. I know that I have deep love for each of my friends and loyal is my middle name...actually it's Joy but I think I've made the point. Have you ever felt lonely though being surrounded by others? Perhaps feelings of 'being the last to know' and 'being lied to by omission' were constantly hurting you. Included with some red flags that are unwritten rules in a friendship clause...you need to love and acknowledge what is happening.
This last week, I shared some of my concerns with someone I love. I was aching and not sleeping. I could see the bigger picture from where I was situated. I have lived the past few months in regret not stepping up and being a true friend in another issue. I wasn't jealous. Only concerned. I really truly care. I spoke up and told this true beauty that I had concerns of feeling left out, and that I saw certain choices in the nearer short term rather than waiting for the pain to come, and helping this friend out then, speaking up and protecting this friend before it happened. Friends share and include each other in their days, not only when their choices make their life feel impossible. I've always thought friends are people you can rely on. A friend has this ability where you can be you, sharing your dreams, concerns, fears and the silliness of your day with the feeling that you belong. A friend encourages you, communicates with you, not only telling you which movie to avoid but truly wants the best for you. I have always prayed that I could be that friend. I shared my fears in a most gracious loving way, asking God for wisdom as I shared my heart. And I lost my friend.
5 comments:
I'm sorry you lost a friend. Sometimes people just don't want to hear the truth because that might require change on their part.
Maybe after they give some thought to your comments, they will return.
I'm also sorry to hear you hurting and have lost a friend. I hope that there can be healing and your friendship can be restored, Andrea.
This hurts my heart for you. I truly hope that it is just a moment of separation and not a permanent loss.
I pray that your friend will allow God to show them what needs to been seen and where your heart is. And I pray God will protect your heart from bitterness and keep it open to forgiveness, and also that you may see anything that He has to show you.
Relationships are very hard. Remember that you are loving another human who also is not perfect.
Hold on dear blog friend!! I hope mending is on its way!e
Well, you know that I lost a dear friend a couple of years ago too - and I still mourn the loss to this day. So while the circumstances were very different in both of our situations, the outcome of hurt and pain is still the same.
I am here for you ALWAYS.
(And while Joy is a very fitting middle name for you - loyal is just as much!) ;)
xoxo
I'm so sorry you lost your friend Andrea. Praying that your relationship will be restored. But that even if it's not, that you will not lose your loyalty and your joy!
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