I just want NORMAL!!!

I don't know what normal is...but I want it.
I want to spend time with my kids without feeling guilty. I want my kids to get the best of me.
I want to do my job without my mind filled with hopelessness and burdened for others.
I want to laugh and not feel tension in my shoulders.
I want our baby home after being in this adoption process for 3 years....and still no news.
I want to see Kris without having to hire sitter.
I want to eat dinner as a family as often as possible.
I want to be able to host friends, new ones and ones that have moved on...wishing that time only helped in a gracious, healing sort of way.
I want to skip, play, trade hockey cards and colour without having to answer the phone or explaining why I didn't answer the phone at a later time.
I want to focus on my family, our parenting and our blessings and let go of things that take away from life's precious gifts.
Right now that all sounds wonderful...but I probably couldn't handle this change. So I may go and have a nap and allow God to fill me with His grace, strength and allow Him to give me balance in my life that I so desperately crave.
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I found this post written and dated back in April. Interesting how this has been my theme all week...I shall continue to pray and seek wisdom to balance my life.
How do you balance your life?