Monday, March 8, 2010

Kleenex in the wash

Is there anything more frustrating than to clean your clothes only to open the washer to find little bits of Kleenex all over everything? Perhaps this has never happened to you thus you may have trouble understanding my frustration. Walk with me through this for a moment: not only do I to separate the clothing into colours for laundry loads but also check pockets for crayons, rocks, my favorite...money - it's a little tip from the family :) and the loathing factor... Kleenex. Each pocket is checked thoroughly as I have had this problem in the past. More often than I can handle it seems. I open the washer's doors and reach in to find chunks of white shredded wet paper. And the kicker? It's seems to always happen in the same type of load...when I'm washing my dark colours. So here is the choice: I can either throw it all in the dryer...though my clothes seem to not last as long or hang them to dry and pick off the unwanted mess with my fingers or a roller...both of which are unwanted and less than ideal.

I seem to get 'Kleenex in the wash' in another area of my life. And it simply makes me weary. I have learned from experience that standing up for what I believe gets so frustrating especially against someone with (the dark load in my life) control issues. When I least expect it, I seem to have this Kleenex problem with the same person again and again. Though, I try to be sensitive and gentle, I feel like a failure and thinking it's my fault when I thought I was Kleenex-free.
.... So here I am, apologizing but given the silent treatment...again, feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders. Oh, how I hate this. As I am trying to pick off the 'Kleenex' and ask for forgiveness for this misunderstanding I may have caused. I find that this issue festers just showing more pieces of the wet, miserable mess.

Dear God,
You understand this situation...more than I could ever. I pray that you can fill my heart with love, compassion for this person in my life and not allow bitterness to come in. I pray that you will intercede in this person's life. I pray You will open the doors to allow healing to begin and possibly giving counselling a chance. As I try to clean up the mess, help me to make choices that are honouring to You...even when this person isn't being fair. You are the Ultimate Friend, Counsellor and Healer. I ask you to fix this relationship with Your Hands...not mine.
Amen

6 comments:

Kathy said...

Annie, my hearts goes out to you as I join you in prayer that you can find peace about this relationship. It's so tedious to pick off the bits, over and over and over again. Praying as you move forward with the Lord.

Jody said...

Praying for you girlie. Beautiful post. I appreciate the way you look for God's lessons in everyday life. Inspiring.

Lizzie said...

I love the analogy!! Thinking of you!

Andrea said...

{{hugs}}

My Journey as a Mom to 3 Young Boys said...

Praying for you! You are a great person and don't deserve that kind of relationship!

Roo said...

i hear your heart. that's hard....and reminds me of a few examples in my own life. love you. xoxoxo