I have been on quite the journey this past year. It has felt as if I have been on a crazy rollercoaster, blind-folded and for some terrible reason the ride's brake is broken, spinning me around and around non-stop. The controller of the rollercoaster can hear my cries to stop the insanity but he cannot slow down the ride.
I am dizzy.
Weary.
Tired.
Though these feelings of defeat are emcompassing me...there is a sense of calm.
Peace.
Only to crave more.
Whilst I wait for this ride to stop, I am discovering that I am not alone. Despite the pain and unknowns, I know that I am exactly where I need to be. Though I may feel like I'm spinning out of control, there is a measure of safety I feel.
So I am grabbing a hold of the ones God has placed in my life and holding my Heavenly Father's hand and trust that when this ride is over, I will come off standing on two feet. Knowing that God has protected me, held me and comforted me despite the unseen and unknown of the voyage makes me humble and grateful.