waiting for her ever after...

We've all been there...waiting. Sometimes it's for the mundane of life to keep up with you like the grocery line check-outs or the less lovely traffic jams.
Sometimes waiting includes holding your anticipation inside the the perfect moment.
Sometimes it looks different.
Sometimes it's a dream in front of you...that you just cannot touch yet feels so close.
Sometimes waiting changes your ideas, dreams and perspective or those of others around you.

Sometimes waiting places fear in me. Waiting at times has been what happens after I have failed and now unsure of which direction is up after a huge fall wondering when my equilibrium will balance again. I hate it...
This level of uncertainty.
I do know that everything happens for a reason, but that does not mean it is easy to handle or that I accept it willingly.
I suppose it could be worse, watching someone I love waiting for her husband to express love to her breaks my heart. As a woman, to not feel loved by her spouse is heart wrenching. We all dream of our prince who sweeps us off our feet and the feelings of being desired and feeling special bring. To watch her tears and time just blur into another day sucks. To not understand nor have answers nor a clear explanation ache to the core.
So she waits.
She waits for his eye contact.
For his acceptance and for him to desire her again. I watch her ability to love this man despite his response. She would say she is madly in love with him...which breaks my heart even more.
Still she waits.
I have learnt so much through her experience.
For her, she's not waiting...she's holding onto HOPE tightly, refusing the thought of another option...because there isn't one. She may not have his hand to hold nor his gentle or sensual caress yet she knows that when the time is right, he will fall madly in love with her again. Giving up is not even a thought. She loves him. Her hope is strong and knows that her knight in shining armour is coming...if only we all could press through the hard stuff and learn how to wait like her.
I cannot wait to witness her ever after!!!